this april, when i entered icu, i had so much determination. i had an idea of what i wanted to do with my life and knew what i had to do to get there...but in the past six months, I've taken so many classes from different studies. initially, i just took those classes because just like a lot of other icu students, i thought, 'if im in icu, mind as well take as many different classes as i can.' However, unexpectedly, taking those classes confused me of what i wanted to do with my life, and now, i constantly feel like i am stuck in a box made out of blank papers thinking about my future.
anyways, lately I've been panicking about what i want to do with my life and who i want to be. but today, listening to professor hibiya's presentation eased me off a bit. we don't have to make a decision right this moment. i mean we're young. we're still in college. we should be experimenting and we definitely should be confused about our future. professor hibiya has made me realize that no matter what we do with our lives today, we should just be ready for our callings that will hopefully come to us in the future. honestly the word 'calling' sounds a bit too religious for me but i get the gist. we need to be open for that moment we will be in someone's need or when we finally make use of ourselves.
till then, im gonna keep it YOLO. You seriously only live once. i dont want to live my once in a life time college life worrying about my future. rather, i would like to think about today and live in this moment. work hard, make mistakes and enjoy it.
even though we might feel restricted at times, i'm glad that i go to a university of tomorrow that lets me do that. well no, im glad that i go to a university that has such a leader who inspires me to look at tomorrow in such a positive and motivational way:D and also, her being a woman, widens up my possibilities as well. i hope i can tear down the walls of normality and tradition and someday become a leader like her.
this all reminds me of a song...
living in the moment by jason mraz
Hi Shiho,
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to hear you found Hibiya-sensei's presentation so meaningful, and inspirational. And yes, you should be enjoying the moment and trying different things and there is time and you need not be committing to what you want to do in the future quite yet.
Hey Shiho! I've also been wondering if my current dream career is what I really wish to pursue for the whole of my life these days. I agree that it gets more difficult to choose what to do right now if we're going to think how it is gonna contribute to our future. But as you say we are still young and maybe in the end there is a time when we're going to realize that everything we've experienced actually helped a lot! Optimissssmmmm!
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